Our Little Abigale Angelica - Abby as we called her (a Brussels Griffon)

Having a dog blesses you with the happiest days of your life and the saddest.

Born May 10, 2000, she passed away October 26, 2016

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I didn't know today would be your last.  That I would have to say goodbye to you so fast. 

I'm so numb I can't feel anymore and praying that you'll walk right through that door.

 And tell me that I was only dreaming.  You're not really gone as long as I believe.

Your love lives inside of me and I will hold on tight.

You always made my troubles feel so small. You were always there to catch me if I'd fall.

So I'll hold you as close as I can, longing for the day when I see your face again.

Abby was by far the best dog I have ever seen and I was very lucky to have her as part of my life and as long as I did.  I will forever miss her. 

She brought so much joy and happiness to me each and every day.   Words cannot express how much I miss her.

  I look forward to seeing her again someday in Heaven.  It will be the greatest joy I will ever know when I see her again.   

I know that she misses me as much as I miss her because she wanted to be close to me all the time and was stressed whenever I wan't around.

Saying goodbye to someone you love with all your heart is one of the hardest things that you will ever deal with in life.

And that's not just for humans, but also for our furry family members.

Losing a dog that means everything in the world to you can leave an irrepairable hole in your heart and change your life forever,

regardless of all the sweet memories that you have of cherished times you had together over numerous years.

You just miss them a lot and alwys will.  You wish with all your heart they were still here and could hold them close, even just one more time, and tell them how much you love them.

One of the grestest tragedies in life is not realizing the value of a relationship until after death has ended one side of it.

The Angels

One More Night

My Heart Will Go On

Mr Tin Man

I'll See You Again

I Only Want to Be With You

You Are My Sunshine

The Dance

You never said I'm leaving

You never said goodbye.

You were gone before I knew it,

And only God knew why.

A million times I've needed you,

A million times I've cried.

If love alone could have saved you,

You never would have died.

In life I loved you dearly,

In death I love you even more still.

In my heart you hold a place,

That no one could ever fill.

It broke my heart to lose you,

But you didn't go alone

For part of me went with you,

The day God took you home.

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Although Abby was about two years old when I got her she was mine to care for, love, and teach for the rest of her life. It was like having a child. She relied on me for her basic life needs, like feeding, walking, potty breaks, and love. I relied on her for emotional support, entertainment, and and most of all love.

Though unlike a child who would grow up, move out, and start a life of their own, Abby was always by my side, needing me as much as I needed her. We did everything together - we were inseparable.  She meant more to me than most people in my life did, and we had a bond that no one could break. Our lives revolved around each other, in the most co-dependent kind of way. I had to plan my days around her, and she had to wait for me for everything she needed. And we gave each other our all.

Fourteen years went by, and our bond only grew stronger with each passing day. We traveled, explored the world, and grew up together. And then...she was gone. Although she had a cancerous tumor, she recovered from the surgery only to have old age take her away from me two years later. I felt like half of me died that day. I felt lost, like I was alone in the world and had no one to turn to. Of course, all of my human friends, my wife,  and family were there to support me, but it wasn't the same. I wanted my dog more than I've ever wanted anything else. I had taken it for granted that she would always be with me.  I never considered that there might be a time when she wouldn't be a part of my life.

I have lost many friends and family members over the years, but nothing hurt as bad as much as  losing my beloved canine companion. No one ever relied on me the way my dog did.  She needed me, and only me. People would be able to fulfill their needs in another way. No relative ever required so much of my time, energy, and love. No one ever showed me such non-judgmental, pure, unconditional love. 

Abby was my responsibility, my protector, my friend, my comforter, my crying towel, and my everything. She made me happy, laugh, cry, yell, dream, and smile. The mere thought of her gave me comfort.  She never judged me or thought poorly of me, and she always wanted to be around me. She was always there for me. So no, I don't think it's wrong that I was more affected by losing her than some people. After all, she was my dog, my very best friend. She always had the adoring look on her face that I miss so much.

I lost my very best friend October 26th, 2016. I don't think I'll ever overcome the loss, she has my heart now more then ever, I cry as I write this, just thinking about her. The only consolation I have is I know in my heart she is somewhere in heaven waiting on me and longing to be with me again just the same as I do her!